New name

If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

New name….

I hated my name for such a long time because I was unable to handle too many adversity after adversity. I mixed with the wrong people network. My understanding from this industry was to serve people with sincerity to all senses and faith in God in mind. I should always overcome obstacles with ease from praying hard to God…I am happy and grateful that I  lasted this long in the industry….with the education my mother provided me….I am ever grateful for this.

I never expect behind the scenes had too much adversity after adversity the worst part  is the people  whom you are working  closely are the one that  played  you out…As I said I hated the name my parents gave me and wanted to end my life quickly…

I chose a service industry as this serves people in this physical form and connects people’s network. As I realised the once  passionate interest to serve people  turned out to be the most hatred path I undertake as I become the poison(sickness and other people’s opinions). I hated being a people’s pleaser. I hated the name my parents gave  me….

While praying in the temples before I went to work and after work, I wished since I troubled everybody I came in contact with, I should end my life as early as possible. I don’t get it, why am I still alive in the next moment or the next day?

Then I realised why I am still alive is because of the condition of the evil manipulative mind of the present surrounding that caused this….my half life is gone and I have the balance 45% to force changes on myself to change the condition mind.

That’s why I continue all the goals I want to do in the next hour and the next minute and keep on reviewing myself till I break 💔 the goal.

I really want to keep my name and continue changing the stupidity manipulation condition mind till I get better and better.