Grudge

Are you holding a grudge? About?

I hold onto grudges that stem from habits and traits I desperately want to change, like trust, reliability, responsibility, and discipline. These grudges have kept me feeling stuck, especially when it comes to relationships.

One of the deepest grudges I carry is tied to an incident with my father. As a child, I walked home alone from school because my father didn’t pick me up. A kind family offered me a ride, and when I finally got home, I asked my father why he passed by without stopping. He ignored me and went to sleep.

That moment shattered my trust and belief in relationships, and ever since, I’ve struggled to maintain meaningful connections.

Recently, I came late to pick up a child from class, and the child’s mother showed me an article that brought back memories of my own childhood.

It reminded me of the painful experience with my father, though the kindness of strangers back then contrasted with the colder world I face now.

This grudge is a deep wound that I need to heal, as it affects my current life and relationships.I’ve realized that my stubbornness and ego are obstacles to healing.

Letting go of these grudges requires embracing discipline, responsibility, and reliability. Punctuality and consistently showing up are key to restoring trust and repairing relationships.

I know that to move forward, I need to release the pain I’ve been holding onto since childhood and free myself from the grudge against my father. Only then can I truly heal and begin to rebuild my sense of trust and responsibility.