The purpose in this Incarnate Life

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The purpose  of my current life is clear: to reconnect and mend the broken relationships of my past incarnations.

These relationships, scattered across different countries and eras, involve the same souls reincarnated alongside me, bound together by an unbroken thread of karma. Yet, I find myself caught in a relentless cycle of ignorance, akin to drowning in a sea of suffering and sacrifice. For what purpose? This haunting question looms over me as I struggle to understand why, each time I begin to break free, I am pulled back under.

At the very moment of my birth, I was carried as a bundle of joy, passed from arm to arm, welcomed with love into this incarnate life. These first touches were more than gestures—they were a deep connection to the life ahead. The tiny fingers that once waved “hai and bye” in innocent joy now seem to hold only fragments of relationships that have faded over time. I wonder how to piece together these scattered bonds, how to navigate the mess of broken connections that weigh on my soul.

This life is my opportunity for resurrection—a chance to open doors long shut, freeing myself from pain and self-imposed limitations. The path to freedom lies in healing these bonds and embracing the transformations that reconciliation brings. It feels as though I am riding the devotee  flag’s  chariot of devotion, with Krishna as my guide, much like Arjuna on the battlefield, urging me to repair the threads of relationships broken in previous lives.

The universe has given me countless signs to guide me toward this realization. Childhood cartoons like Scooby-Doo, with its hidden mysteries, and Milo in Atlantis, exploring a lost civilization, resonate deeply within me. These stories mirror my quest to uncover the truths of my past lives and reconnect with the souls who journey alongside me.

Memories of travel often strike with a sense of deja vu. Riding an elephant in Thailand, attending my sister’s graduation in the UK, or feeling an inexplicable familiarity in foreign lands—all these moments feel like pilgrimages to places where my soul has been before. The most profound epiphany came during my visit to the Prambanan Temple in Indonesia. Ascending its ancient steps and touching the weathered stones, I felt an undeniable connection to the same souls I had known in a different time.

Through prayer, devotion, and faith, I have learned to raise my energy vibrations, dissolving insecurities and lost connections. I find harmony in moments of unity, where people of diverse faiths and colors reconcile with one another. Shared laughter, stories, and kindred moments reveal the light of reconnection, shining in our eyes and reigniting bonds long forgotten.

Even places themselves seem to hold pieces of the puzzle. Some destinations feel inexplicably familiar, as though I am revisiting a home from a distant past. These are not coincidences but invitations to awaken buried memories and mend the threads of my soul’s journey.

Among the relationships I must heal, the bond with my father stands out as one of the most significant. Resentment and unresolved emotions have strained our connection, but a recent moment of clarity shifted my perspective. While handling his belongings—items he had carefully saved for but could no longer use due to their expiration—I realized the importance of our relationship.

My father finds joy in his garden, where blooming flowers reflect the essence of his spirit. By nurturing this garden for him, I hope to bridge the gap between us, bringing light to his dementia-clouded mind and joy back into his sparkling eyes. This simple act of love is my way of reconciling with him, not only in this life but across the echoes of our shared past.

Ultimately, this life is about breaking the cycle of pain and suffering, healing the wounds of the past, and embracing the connections of the present. Each bond I mend becomes a step closer to liberation, a release from the burdens of dharma that tether me to this earthly existence.

This journey is not just about others; it is also a path of self-actualization. By healing my relationships, I rediscover the essence of my soul, reclaiming fragments of myself that were lost in the tides of time. With devotion, faith, and the guidance of divine purpose, I walk this path with the knowledge that love and forgiveness are the ultimate keys to freedom.