Top peeves

Name your top three pet peeves

For too long, I have lived with the burden of seeking approval from others. It’s a habit I now recognize as one of the most harmful I’ve developed over the years—a habit that feels nearly impossible to unravel. If I were still a child, it might be easier to shift my mindset. But as an adult, finding the root cause of this behavior feels like searching for a needle in a haystack.

Top Peeves: The Weight of Misjudgment

How did I live with this lie for so long? Perhaps it was the way others dismissed me with a stare, labeling me as “nothing” and “harmless.” These words cut deep, making me feel invisible and unworthy. Such dismissiveness is not only dehumanizing but has also fueled a quiet rage within me, a dragon lurking in the shadows, waiting for the pivotal moment to rise and reclaim its strength.

Top Peeves: Rising Above Manipulation

I’ve been used as a pawn too many times to count—manipulated for others’ personal gain, tested like an object to measure endurance, and cornered into admitting guilt for things I knew nothing about. It’s infuriating, and it feels like an endless cycle of betrayal. Sometimes, I wonder if this is karmic retribution for past actions, perhaps from another life. But in this incarnation, I refuse to let these patterns define me.

The Power of Devotion

Even when others try to break my spirit, my devotion to higher values remains unshaken. Chanting and connecting with the divine has been my solace—a way to relinquish pain and suffering and transform darkness into light. To those who misuse my devotion or see me as a tool for their gain, I say: let go of your negativity or face the consequences of your actions. The past is dead to me, and so are the people who belong to it.

Forging a New Path

Breaking free from these shackles requires confronting the habits and relationships that have held me back. It means embracing the pivotal moment when I can rise above the lies and manipulation, leaving behind the remnants of a past that no longer serves me. I understand now that forgiveness, both for myself and others, is key to repairing what’s broken. Not for their sake, but for my own peace and growth.

My Top Peeve: Being Used as a Pawn

What I detest most in relationships is being treated as a pawn—stepped on for others’ gain while they justify their actions as mere “tests.” It’s a form of disrespect I can no longer tolerate. To break free, I must recognize my own worth, set boundaries, and refuse to play the role others have assigned me.