The idea of first day

Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.

My first day of school as a child was a terrifying experience. The thought of leaving the house on my own for the first time and being left alone with other kids, who were so different from me, was overwhelming. The fear of being alone in an unknown place surrounded by strangers made my eyes widen with unease. This was my first encounter with solitude, and it filled me with mixed emotions—a strange blend of fear and curiosity.

I struggled to mix with others or make friends. I preferred to be by myself, observing life as it unfolded around me, rather than participating in it. Watching others from a distance felt like a safety net, a way to protect myself from the unknown.

One day, a teacher noticed me sitting alone. She gently approached me, took my hand, and introduced me to the other kids. She encouraged them to play with me. It was an awkward experience. The closest I had come to playing with others before was with my siblings or cousins, but even that connection faded over time.

From the very beginning, I was skeptical. Were these kids the right fit for me? Did I have to pretend to enjoy playing with them? These questions lingered, not just in my childhood but throughout various stages of my life, including when I began working with an employer.

This skepticism evolved into a recurring theme: the realization that there were no truly sincere friendships in my life. It seemed that everyone had an agenda—to follow the crowd or to serve their own motives. Over time, I learned to rely on myself, to trust my own instincts, and to find my authenticity. I sought out people who resonated with my own vibration, but I also recognized that my true strength came from within.

I realized that the only trustworthy companion I had was myself. By focusing on learning, doing what I wanted, and maintaining a charitable and intentional mind, I found that everything I needed came to me. My inner self became my guide, leading me toward divinity and helping me navigate life with clarity and purpose.