The Inner Deity

Today’s quote: “Do it without being told.”

Let’s face it—I’m not living alone. I’m still surrounded by people. I woke up from yet another déjà vu dream, telling my monkey mind that I had overslept and needed to get up and start my routine, without being yanked out of bed like those half-asleep moments I’ve had before.

I’m not sure whether I was truly sleeping or just dizzy and forced to physically get up and drive. It would be great if I could find a garage to park my car in—a space of my own—instead of always parking behind someone else’s car. That way, I wouldn’t be jolted awake with that double-shock, electrocuted feeling that comes from the déjà vu playing out again in my mind.

That’s one procrastinating excuse gone. And in real life, just yesterday, as I drove past a real estate area, I saw an open-air garage with six individual parking spaces. This is what I call possibility.

Self-care for me means tending to myself with awareness, listening to the stream of thoughts my monkey mind sends, and sticking to a simple routine—like making my bed, refreshing myself, and writing this Day Two post about breaking free from the detrimental cycle I’ve found myself in. I’m determined to find all the roots of this obstacle that has escalated over time.

So how do I de-escalate it for good and break free? I’ll take this as a lesson learned.

Right now, I smell the wet, bathed aura around me, and I tell myself not to attract that demonic, delusional energy. I remind myself—I’m still in bed, typing this post.

My focus today is on exercises to ease my morning aches and journaling every single thing that happens around me. This is the book I’ll return to again and again