The Parable of the Sanyasin Within

What could you try for the first time?

For the first time, I could try to be a sanyasin — a seeker beyond fear — after the Bhava Spandana program. Before that, my nights were filled with strange dreams: a car accident, a split second of my eyes shutting, and my whole body collapsing into darkness. My days were no different — the mind was a battlefield, filled with unseen arguments and invisible wars of thought.

There were whispers of telepathic shadows trying to silence me, warning me not to write my truth. Their negativity often tried to tie my body and twist my thoughts. I wondered, why do I speak such things about myself? What must I change to become a better being?

But after Bhava Spandana, I felt something shift. A lightness entered my being — a quiet knowing that I am not the storm; I am the sky beyond it. I learned, as Sadhguru said, that the body and mind are not quicksand to sink into but platforms to stand upon.

And so, when passengers entered my car, bringing with them the weight of their unseen energies — some heavy, some hostile — I stood firm. I did not fight; I simply spoke within, “Do not test your darkness on me. Do not knot your fear into my peace.”

If their thoughts tried to touch me, I would ask silently, “Does your Prophet teach you to cast your insecurity upon those who seek only sincerity? Do you not see that purity does not belong to a race or a religion, but to the heart that prays in truth?”

Then, from the stillness of my aura, I would speak not in words, but in energy:
“I am here only to take you from point A to point B. Do not drag me into your hell; let me stay in my heaven. I serve you as part of my duty — not as your battlefield.”

Since Bhava Spandana, I’ve found the strength to see beyond the visible. Now I sense who carries light and who carries shadow. Yet I remain still — unmoved — knowing that even darkness must bow before one who stands in the fire of awareness.