The worthless paper

What would you do if you won the lottery?

“From attachment arises desire, and from desire comes grief.”— Bhagavad Gita 2.62

Lottery is just a worthless paper just like my demised father who spent a lot of time trying his best to pay back to his sister’s husband. In total he borrowed close to 54 thousand ringgit on buying lottery tickets desperately just to pay them. That was done over a period of 12 times of mortgages ever since I was residing here since I was nine years old.

To me this is a big sum of money that I saved I can easily kept it into the savings. Imagined my mom and my family members went through all of this as he always accused my mom who always cried on the staircase and I always come to her rescue and stood and in front of her in her defense for verbally accusing, my mom as she always caught him praying at odd hour everytime he got himself in a debt mess. I used to get up from my sleep at odd hour to find my mom crying as my demised father always accused her for his debt as she didn’t know anything of what he did. When my mom and I looked at his finances yesterday. He had been losing money from time

I was born in 1971. I bought him bad luck. No wonder my mom got firing from his sister’s husband and telling her to give up her savings to pay for his debt. When my mom refused to help him, he turned to me to mortgaged my first property to pay off his debt. I was just starting to earn a living and got help from my brother to secure a property. He bought me to all tyoes of banks to get a mortgage on this property and he can pay his debt. By then 1998, I utterly refused. Each and everytime he bought me to every single bank, I utterly refused the big fat word “No” in front of the bank officer or lease officer or house loan officer. I knew how hard it was back then to secure a property. It is no wonder my family members are labelled as poor and none of his relatives do not attend any of his prayers because of the mess in finance.

Everyone in his family are glad he is dead and gone and they have nothing to do with us. No connection, no memory, no ties and even better the collection filled with his memory filled my demonic black magic is even greater. A tap on my left hand, Rathe the witch who had saw what I have typed away had telepathy from the other side. The cruel Rathe finally read what I had typed in the post read it all. That’s why she decided to bring her family tree to sit in one of the day prayers. This was Rathe telepathing her way from the other side.

No only that, I will getting sued or in this day of era, everyone is waiting to blast me into pieces which I am glad no need to play the losing game of lottery like he did. I don’t play lottery because I rarely play lottery even though I too got myself into a debt and will usually work all day to earn back the money to pay off the debt. I certainly do not need to be in his shoes anymore.

Like yesterday, after going through his documents or letters finally found the bitter reality truth of what money can do to a man if mismanage his money.

This morning, I had a super weird dream on why did he finally bought a home after my mom forced him in 1973 to buy the current property was because of his location. He fondly played lotteries non-stop with the house number and the number keep banging in my head 6753. I immediately got up from my bed and was angry with myself that I should have gotten earlier to practise all Isha practices instead of getting this dream.

Hardwork or smart lazy like me pays for the lifestyle I need since I am working on my own providing a transport services. How hard is it to save 10 a day is rather than spending on shares or running into debt just to live on castle in the sky.

The demised father is extremely foolish to live on lottery and ruin the family members. He had all those properties as my mom’s dowry and can easily collect rental money to live a luxurious live and save that money to accumulate more properties. So foolish to live in a castle in the sky by playing lotteries tickets and shares.

It is no wonder everyone is his side is so angry with him as they had to use their savings to help my father out for ruining his own family in the mid of it.

Playing with lottery is a poor man game and anyone plays with it need to know, the biggest earner is the lottery company itself and never the poor man.

“He who sees things as they are is not shaken by loss, nor intoxicated by gain.”— Bhagavad Gita 2.57