What’s a mystery from your own life that you’ve never solved?
“Let go of attachment to success and failure, and perform your duty with equanimity. Such balance is called yoga.” — Bhagavad Gita
The twenty-day delay was due to complications involving the book collection Siddha Ankara, which could not be delisted or made unavailable on the platform during that period. This created ongoing pressure and stress.
During this time, I was under intense emotional strain and confusion, and I experienced myself as being pulled in different directions by fear, pressure, and external influence from people around me.
In that state, I made decisions that I later regretted, including sharing or offering material involving the book to Jane.
What I intended as an expression of my truth ended up becoming distorted through communication, interpretation, and emotional reaction. Instead of bringing clarity, it created misunderstanding, conflict, and damage within the household and relationships involved.
I recognise now that my writing, which I believed was exposing my reality, was also shaped by instability and emotional overwhelm. As a result, it was interpreted by others in ways that contributed to tension, blame, and misunderstanding.I take responsibility for the impact of my actions and the confusion that followed.
At the same time, I acknowledge that I was operating from a highly pressured and unstable mental and emotional state.Going forward, I no longer want to carry patterns of blame, manipulation, instigation, or emotional withdrawal—whether from myself or absorbed from others.
These are not the identity I choose to hold.I understand myself as someone who started with nothing and wishes to rebuild from clarity. My intention now is to let go of unhealthy patterns and develop new, stable habits based on awareness, responsibility, and simplicity.
The past situation remains what it is: a period of distortion and misunderstanding. What matters now is stepping away from that cycle and choosing a more grounded way of living.
“Abandon all attachment and perform your duty established in the Self. Be even-minded in success and failure.” — Bhagavad Gita
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